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About anderzoid

Life is Bittersweet. God is love, the rest is minor. Ever evolving. Incorporating the ancient & alien into the home environment.

chemical pregnancy

the opportunity of a new life, stolen, becomes a lie.

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Telling Atheist Dad about early pregnancy loss

Bad News stabbed in the gut. throbbing pain. hands heavy. you want for me to talk. i can’t. what words are there for describing that i am a tomb?   that i am curled here holding death? will you be … Continue reading

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conception through first trimester for an atheist dad

Atheist Dad: First Trimester ovulation. corpus luteal. fallopian tube. 2 weeks. intercourse. cilia have moved my egg to your sperm. after intercourse between our animate beings my ovum is met. zona pellucida penetrated. cortical reaction verifies your paternity. it was … Continue reading

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Waiting for spring

It is cold. The normal frigid Chicago winters with feet of snow have warmed to bring slush and rain. The rain. uggghh. Pouring down. Flooding all the little nooks and crannies. Unescapable. Overwhelming. Rushing to and fro trying to dodge it. … Continue reading

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Things in this house that I know belong to me:   a pair of once sparkling white Jessica Simpsons high heels from Nordstrom that are yellow from age,   a few photo albums,    the shower curtain in the bathroom,  … Continue reading

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When you cry every day. When tears dont seem to end. I wait for a moment of dry but am interrupted by uncontrolled bouts of rain. Days to weeks, will it be months or years of mourning? Will the sadness, … Continue reading

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Trigger warnings: The links describe violent assault.Please feel free to pray and share your replies of encouragement but not continue reading. Be kind to yourself and others. Share Love. Contrast Hate. We are raising awareness…

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